After a lot of thinking on the subway, Jenna gets home and goes straight to her closet.
Jenna
Heather, I’m sorry for disappearing.
Jenna
I didn’t know how to answer your question about letting Adam in.
Heather
I figured as much.
Jenna
What if he runs when he sees what a mess I actually am?
Jenna
I’m remembering prom night and the look on my boyfriend’s face when I showed him what I kept in my purse.
Jenna
He laughed at me, thinking it was a joke until he saw MY face.
Jenna
Then he said I was weird.
Heather
Yeah, but he was your first serious boyfriend, right?
Jenna
Yeah. I really thought he might understand.
Jenna
But I wanted more from him than he was obviously comfortable giving.
Jenna
He was shocked that I had some kinks.
Heather
Baby, everyone has a kink or two.
Heather
And Adam’s not a kid.
Jenna sits on the closet floor and holds a locked box in her lap.
Jenna
He would be weirded out too.
Heather
Listen. I’ve decided that I’m not going to ask what happened this evening at the bar.
Heather
But it sounds like you have something pretty special with Adam.
Heather
And honey, you’re the one in charge here.
Heather
YOU get to decide whether to make something happen with him.
Jenna
I really don’t know if I’ve got the guts for it.
Jenna
I mean, yes, I’m addicted to what’s going on with Adam.
Jenna
And yes, every encounter makes me braver.
Jenna
But he wants so much more than what we’ve been doing.
She unlocks the box and opens it.
Jenna
I snagged it from him in college. He wore it for his first successful internship interview.
Jenna
Then he came to a tutoring session right afterward, so proud of himself.
Jenna
He took the tie off and undid his collar before we got down to math.
Jenna
Yeah. He was so happy that night, and I wanted to remember it.
Jenna
I loved being reminded of that connection we had, so I never gave it up.
Jenna stands with the tie and box in hand, her legs trembling.
Heather
You need to say something to him…
Jenna
I’ll talk to you later, ok? Love you.
Need is clawing its way through Jenna, the craving for that connection with Adam.
She goes down the hall to his room then lies in his bed, dizzily inhaling his scent.
Holding the tie, she takes some pictures out of the box then enables her phone’s Voice to Text.
Jenna
Adam, are you on your flight yet?
Adam
We really need to talk.
Jenna
Maybe…when you get back.
Jenna
Right now, I just want to know that you’re not angry with me.
Adam
I’m just…frustrated as hell.
She looks at the pictures, seeing the images of herself with his tie.
In every copy, her expression is ecstatic as she touches herself with the silk.
Jenna
I know. But I’m still trying to understand — why me, Adam?
Jenna
Why not some other girl?
Adam
I can tell you anything and everything.
Warmth rushes through her.
She strokes the tie over her belly, her blood pounding.
Adam
You’re the one I always WANT to talk to, above anyone else.
She slips the tie lower, pressing the silk against her most sensitive part.
Being in his bed and secretly getting off makes her stomach flip with one erotic wave after another…
Adam
Now that you’re back in my life, everything is so obvious, Jen.
Adam
There’s a reason I never stopped thinking about you.
Shit—Voice to Text picked up her building, orgasmic noises and she accidentally pressed Send.
In her rising frenzy, she pushes the phone away, then climaxes with reckless abandon.
Panting, she grabs the phone and texts Heather.
Jenna
There’s something seriously wrong with me.
Jenna
I think Adam’s on to me. He wants to TALK.
Jenna
But if he finds out how strongly I’ve always felt about him, he’ll run like hell.
Heather
It sounds like you’re panicking.
Jenna
That's because I am. I never told you this, but a few months ago…
Jenna
I took these pictures with his tie—X - rated pictures.
Jenna
We live together, Heather. If he ever found them, he’d think I’m obsessed.
Her phone dings with a text from Adam.
Adam
Good bc I was almost at the airport, but I had my driver turn around.
Adam
I’ll be at your place in a few minutes so we can work this out.
Jenna scrambles out of his bed with the tie, pictures, and box.
She barely has time to throw the objects into her room, slam the door, and grab her things.
Then she’s out the door and down the hallway, frantically pressing the elevator button.
Adam
You’re home, right? I’m coming up now.
One elevator is going up, the other coming down.
The down elevator’s doors open at the same time as the up elevator’s…
And in the other car, she catches a peek of a tall man with light brown hair and green eyes.
Desperately, she dives into her car, making it just before the doors slide closed.
She sinks to the ground, knowing this isn’t even close to over…
